As far as “self” goes, I feel like I’ve finally fallen into mine. Some connection was made. And, I feel more “at home”, than I’ve ever felt before.
If that makes any sense.
Over the past few years, I’ve grown more (authentically) confident with myself & my abilities. Accepting some things that “just are” about me. Learning, slowly, not to feel bad or guilty about them. No longer seeking outsider approval & permissions to do the things that I want to do in life. Dismissing the inherent compulsion to “explain myself“.
It all feels good! Really good.
I think I’d been waiting on this for a while. For most of my twenties. Definitely all of my teen life! Being über self-conscious, and (simultaneously) overly concerned about external perceptions & judgements. It was exhausting. And quite annoying! If I were to despise anything about “being young”, that’d probably be it.
Honestly, I still have days when I don’t feel my absolute best. But, MAN…it feels amazing to no longer be living that crappy stuff every day!
If this is what a thirty-something-self feels like, than forty must feel serene.
How has your “self” & attitudes changed, as you get older?